I cannot instruct the young.
Despite my hours of patiently listening
to my own thoughts as I watch the walls age,
despite the careful touch I lend my friends
as they paint their own limitations red
with the blood of their fingers, I fear
I do not have the patience
for your children. They are loud
and restless, ceaselessly trembling like a litter of puppies
suckled on sugar and trained
with epileptic lights,
and you, I have no clue
what kind of rotten job you’ve done
in raising them
but
this is not the reason for my fear.
In that tangle of thoughts and hormones
lies a confusion about the tangle greater yet:
the world. And they’ve been misled
already by instructors more insidious than I
not to believe or trust or even know
a goddamn thing. And even if they happen to find
one thing to hold more often than not it is
a poison but
I am not afraid, either, of demon tutors or chalkboards
or the opiates kids gobble like Halloween treats.
With my arms crossed over a saturnine sigh
the only true refute rings and echoes leadenly.
Because I would have the truth out at last:
it is in all the secret books and speakers
half-hidden, buried in public vaults, dammed up
behind a circus of distractions and I
would give their bright and salivating eyes
this advice:
To steal. Steal
everything you can get your hands upon,
every book and movie
anyone dares dismiss:
the making of a criminal knowing,
an outlaw canon, is the highest passion
you can encourage in yourself.
So because you’ve so recklessly amused them
and because you will make them hate
every pulsing light and whizz-bang sound someday,
patiently I will let them teach themselves
to break you.
It’s funnier that way.